Sleeping like an angel, atleast for now is what everyone has been telling me. I never would have thought in my whole life that I could feel so much love for someone I just met. That is until I met this little guy! He has been a true blessing to my husband and I and I am not sure that we knew what was really in store for us. I know that I wasn't ready for him to show up 2 weeks early, he was already acting like his dad.....pulling a fast one over on me by coming into the world 2 weeks early. :) So anyways, I thought that my husband and I had a close bond before we had Micah. But since he has come into the world, things have been so different. It's this unspoken bond almost. He has brought us closer than ever. I think that this was God intention when he blessed us with Micah. We weren't struggling or anything with our marriage, but we certainly didn't expect to get pregnant either. As soon as we put God as the center of our marriage, that is when he showed us that miracles to happen. And here we are with little Micah.
I sit here today and think of the sacrafice that God made for us, he gave his only son. Now having a son puts a whole new meaning on what he did for me and my sins. Talking to someone the other day about this subject got me thinking. Would I be willing to give up my son? Would you? To think to myself that I would have to let my little one die for someone elses sins, I always said well sure I would. But that was before we had Micah, now when I ask myself that question I find myself hesitating to answer it. Then I think to myself, God never hesitated, he just did what needed to be done. Jesus also knew what he had to do and he willing gave his life for us, do we take advantage of that? I think so, should we? No, but it's so easy to do that I think that we all just assume tomorrow will be here just like today was.
Micah has made a drastic change in our lives, sure some of them aren't the best, but we are making the most of what we have. We have God, our baby, a loving family, and loving and caring friends. We are truly blessed in so many ways, we all just need to focus on the good things and not the bad. We are pushing through the rough times and praying more and more. People say that when you have kids things change, they are so right on that. They say, oh you will never get to sleep anymore and you wont get to do this or that anymore. But what they don't tell you are all the wonderful things that you do get to do. You get to just sit and watch your baby grow and learn new things everyday. You get to see that first smile and that first laugh, which is the cutest thing to me. You might have to get up at all hours of the night to feed them, but when you do that, you have this bond that is so much stronger than anything else. I sit with Micah at night while feeding him and think to myself. What did I do to deserve such a beautiful blessing in my life? Then I thank God any chance I get for blessing us with him and the chance to raise a family in his ways and to get the chance to teach them what God has done for us and for Micah.
